Hello there, you people on Earth!
How was your day today? Was it better than mine? I bet it was…Today, for me, it was one of those days that you just wanna jump off the building into a net just to forget everything that has happened. My knees hurt while I was dancing at dance class. I was lost in the underground and almost dropped my phone in the underground railroad. And to top that I got a B minus. So what does this whole stuff have to do with my mother, you ask?! Well, everything actually.
My mother, who I believe might have an OCD and always has control me, has called me a stupid drugged whore and told me that I wouldn’t pass my exams, just because of that B minus and the fact I went out to bar with a few friends. Do you think this is normal? Well, My life has always been this way. Me controlled by her. I really do hope that someday I will be free to express myself and be ME.. For now though, I have to pretend that I am always happy and never tired and also I might have to cut down the going out. Yeah, my life is just so perfect with my controlling mother, who believes that my every doing is a bad decision and that it will ruin my life. The sad thing is that I try…I do try to tell her how I feel and to express my feelings by telling her that I NEVER have felt that she has any faith in me.
It is so not fair and I just want to get out of this jail and move on to living my life… Has anyone ever had those problems? Maybe if we unite, maybe if we connect to each other and talk, we will stop feeling as trash and we might even lower the number of suicides, because those problems might sometime lead to exactly this. SHARE! We have to connect and SHARE!
So this is from me for now, I will be writing on this topic again.. Probably soon…
KIds – believe in yourselves no matter what your parents say 🙂 And don’t forget to love… ❤